My daily fight to avoid depression: Part 2 – The Job search

Today I have completed a hundred days in the state of unemployment. It can be safely termed as ‘the strangest century’ I have ever scored. Raising my bat, I thank my friends and well-wishers who have been part of this run – working tirelessly to get me a job, emailing out my CV,  calling up their influential contacts, sending me job opportunity advertisements and assuring me time to time, that it’s just a matter of time.

Aside from the unique circumstances, it has been a strange phase in my life considering I never ever needed to search for a job before August 2018. My first two jobs came when I still in my Engineering & MBA college campuses, respectively. The only other job change I went through was courtesy the best boss I ever worked with – An Australian by the name of David. It also meant the Goliath in me never ever needed to make any serious structured curriculum vitae (CV) or register on job sites till date.  In fact the only reason I maintained my LinkedIn profile was just to keep in touch with people who are not on other social media platforms and of course, for a rainy day.

That rainy day never arrived; but a tsunami, cyclone and incessant thunder and lightening arrived; a hundred days ago. Depending on which side of the fence people are sitting, everyone has a unique view of this continued state of unemployment.

The dark clouds just refuse to go away

There are many rationale reasons to this.

  • The job market is a difficult one and will continue to decrease in its scope as the world moves more and more towards automation. That said, the self-employed market (start-ups, freelancing, contract based, online methods) and the passive earning options are increasing at a rate faster than the rate of decrease of traditional jobs. But then, how many expats, sole earners in their family, in the line of fire, after hundred days without unemployment, with kids responsibilities, with a finger on the panic button to return to homeland, with a constant calculation on how much money can be saved and taken back and coming from a family where ‘job’ is considered the ultimate ‘karma’, dare to alter their routes at such a juncture.
  • The next harsh reality is that senior or mid-senior level jobs seldom come via the normal job search process – ie send your CV, await a call, go through various rounds of interviews etc. Most jobs at that level are finalized either over a round of golf, tennis, table of alcoholic drinks, cups of coffee or worse – the incoming candidate is pre-decided even before the job advertisement is sent out as part of the formal process. So that reduces the odds a lot; and you are really dependant on your contacts to get you hooked somewhere. On the funny side, I don’t drink alcohol or coffee and neither play tennis or golf!
  • The last reason is the last quarter (of the year) – the toughest timeline for job seekers. Typically all (small and) big companies freeze their annual budgets by the month of September and only re-start regular hiring from (the following) February onwards. This is also because employee attrition is always low towards the end of the year and increases after the annual bonuses are doled out in the early months of the following year. It is logical that employees stay around during the low activity holiday season (Nov-Dec), collect their bonuses and increment letters in February and move onto the next organization with better bank balance and bargaining powers.

Does loyalty mean much?

I personally have not made any such opportunistic move in my entire career. The only job change I underwent was in the month of August. An 18 years long work experience was only with three different corporate – as loyal in this modern age as one can get. But does loyalty pay? Do people stand by you in your most crucial time for the hours and nights you have given to them? Do they remember how much your work has benefitted their organizations or departments? 18 years of work experience anyways gets reduced to a one-pager CV. If you calculate by working hours, that’s roughly 50,000 hours of your life or about 50% of your life (not counting for sleeping hours) given to the corporate …all reduced to one piece of paper.

The same people for whom you slogged late nights, weekends; picked their phones or answered emails, amidst your sleep, or in between a vacation; would no longer be actively remembering you, calling you or bothering to give you another opportunity. Unfortunately, that’s the accepted norm these days. You work on a project for two years, work closely and dine together with a set of colleagues for two years. The day you are moved to another project, you start forgetting the names of the ones you worked with before. Loyalty doesn’t mean much.

The efforts put so far

The people unaware of the ‘rationale realities’ (mentioned above) can be forgiven for thinking that maybe I am not making enough efforts. Maybe I am just a tad too happy with the separation from my previous employer and hoping for a job to walk in. That’s not true. In the last hundred days, at an average of applying ten jobs per day, I would have easily applied for 1000+ jobs till today. I have applied to jobs across Asia (minus India), jobs which pay much lesser than my last pay and jobs that may just help me sustain. And yet the situation refuses to change. Add to that a conservative number of 100-150 friends who would have spoken and sent my CV to influential people. Assuming another conservative number of each friend sending my CV atleast to five desks (and God bless my friends for doing the same and standing by me), that makes another 500-750 places my CV would have been thrust in. If 100 days, 1000+ applications and 750+ referrals can’t change my state, what are the chances that the next hundred days with similar efforts would make any material difference?

Apart from the law of probability, of course. That may be the only positive thing I can hold onto for now – while racing against time for the tide to turn. Or racking my head on the trade-off question – How long should I continue the job search in an expensive land or should I save money and return to my homeland? It’s true with every rejection, the probability of getting a job is increasing. Hence my best bet remains that I need to keep the fight on… at the least to tell my kids, well wishers and friends that I fought till I could fight. That I left no stone unturned, approached the government authorities, sought every tool the system has made to re-instate the unemployed and knocked every possible door of hope.

Singapore Job search sites

For the benefit of my readers who may seek jobs at Singapore, these are the leading websites and my rating of their effectiveness.

  1. LinkedIn – The Facebook of jobs but when was the last time Facebook ever solved a problem. I want to meet someone who got a senior position job via LinkedIn. The software has the best marketing skills and it did help in many unknown people look for me and contact me. But in terms of real job interviews, it scored a zero for me.
  2. – This is an aggregator site, the Skyscanner of jobs. It’s a must use site although the features are not as friendly compared to its rivals. It is effective.
  3. – Easy to use, effective, huge database of jobs and recommended.
  4. – Easy to use, effective, decent database or only financial jobs and recommended for people seeking jobs in financial world.
  5. Michael Page – Easy to use but has very limited jobs and for me, I didn’t get ay interview via this site so wont recommend.
  6. Glassdoor – Not the easiest to navigate but has large database of jobs, particularly at junior levels.

Is society losing rationale?

The last set of people sitting on the fence are effectively… the majority. Who will dismiss any argument under the carpet –

“Oh yes. Getting a job will be impossible after this”


“Oh yes, he shouldn’t have done this”

…well don’t we all know? Or don’t I know it by now?

The question here is ‘How long should society be punishing someone for an error of this nature’? Unfortunately, we are in the 2010s when amidst an avalanche of Whatsapp messages, people are too occupied to brainstorm on a topic in-depth. Every topic gets dismissed or diluted within three minutes. You meet someone and try to explain your pain and the likelihood is that the supposed listener has started talking well before you have finished. And, either the topic got diluted, within three minutes, with the listener rattling on about a personal experience (of a vastly lesser magnitude) or closing the topic with some random advices.

I want to ask them – so what should be the extent one pays for an unintended, random forward post, already in circulation, post an apology and after being cleared by authorities? Should every trolled person be left jobless lifelong? One could be trolled for going through a divorce, wearing a short dress, involved in a neighbourhood argument or even passing a comment in jest? Should the punishment for a social media post be same as siphoning off funds, molesting a lady, beating a neighbour or conspiring against a colleague at work? Why should corporate punish a person after the state has closed the matter? Does corporate stop hiring someone who has got warned for breaking a traffic signal? Is corporate bigger than the law of the land? Is society removing the size of the mistake concept? Are trollers the new lawmakers? Should any trolled kid, be left with no school willing to take him/her lifelong? Why do corporate, institutions or branded schools chicken out so fast despite all the power of money, slew of lawyers, influencers and robust brand on their side? Why can’t they go the mile for the sake of people or for society? Why is it when I tell my situation upfront, with utter honesty and transparency, does a massive organization freeze?

How long do I wait for a corporate to turn warm, gather guts and stand up?


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16 thoughts on “My daily fight to avoid depression: Part 2 – The Job search

  1. I have been following your posts quietly for a while and thought I’d put down my thoughts.

    First off, to address your point about how long should society penalize you. Maybe my assessment is wrong and you already realize it, but you seem to be appealing to the publics sense of justice. Unfortunately, public opinion doesn’t work like that. The world is a lot more unfair than that. I believe that the issue is a general bias against the Indian from India working in white collar jobs. It may be sometimes a perception that we’re stealing “their” jobs or it could just be that they hate the way we look. I suspect that it’s the latter compounded by the former. Not justified and not fair but the unfortunate reality. It seems that you unwittingly became a soft target for this unfairness and perhaps are facing the brunt of unjustified public anger towards the community in general.

    Then comes the corporate response. To be honest, it is slightly surprising that not only did your last employer bow to public opinion rather than legal evidence, but they continued to keep the door shut on you after you were legally cleared. Similarly, it is shocking that the corporate world in general seems to adopt the same attitude.

    No matter what anyone tells you, the extent of the retribution being inflicted on you is disproportionate to what you did. The fact that the legal process has cleared you is vindication.

    Finally, out of curiosity, is there a reason why you cannot rent out your apartment, move to India at least temporarily and live off the proceeds? Is that not an option and especially more viable if you land a job in India to further help with the money situation?

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    1. Hi DM,

      Thanks lot for your detailed words. That you cared to think about a topic in depth, clarity and reasoning makes me happy. Else, most people I encounter finish the topic in two lines passing an opinion or judgement. Even on this thread I get threats and trolls, which am collecting.

      I trust Singapore and it’s system. I trusted the system and hence the legal decision came within 1month when average time line is 6-9 months. Last ten years all my blogs, posts and emcee scripts have shouted out that SG is the best country in the world to live in. At office during motivating employees etc my standard lines have always been to tell everyone to appreciate SG more and feel lucky to be part of this country. Even in that post, my depiction was that my body is now Singaporean only my heart remains Indian. No expat in another country will say his body now belongs to that country. Yes I used the wrong graphic (as it was already in circulation) and apologised to national newspaper for it. But I trust SG.

      I can’t believe 500 odd trollers can be representative of a country of 6million and the silent voices are slowly opening up. Most of the trollers only abuse the Govt or different communities here as excuse for their failures in life. It will change. Singapore isn’t an extremist fundamentalist country so someone somewhere will take the guts to lead society to change.

      I stay in Govt housing (as have always believed to stay connected to the roots and do things at those levels) so I can’t rent out my place. If ever I need to give up my PR, sell the house and go away it will be a sad day for Singapore. Till such time I need to fight everyday. To set example for my kids, my friends, fans, followers and readers like you. That one must stand up to injustice. Else if institutions are going to decide based on handful of trollers, then why keep a legal system. At this rate, soon a kid will be dismissed from school for forwarding a WhatsApp image and no school be willing to take him/her. This nonsense needs to stop here.

      Best wishes to you and your loved ones.



      1. So I guess your HDB is still quite new and not old enough to rent out.

        Anyway, hopefully your rough patch will end soon and you can find a job after recruitment opens up again.

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  2. You claimed “Why should corporate punish a person after the state has closed the matter?…”, but in reality, you were given a stern warning by the police…still think you are right and have done nothing wrong???

    You self-exalted yourself “If ever I need to give up my PR, sell the house and go away it will be a sad day for Singapore…”. Shows what kind of callous and obnoxious self-entitled asshole you are that you think you are indispensable to Singapore???

    Tiem for you to go back to India…you can get all the attention you’ve always wanted!


    1. Tony troller

      You have been doing a good job of trolling and stalking me online over the months. No image (that too unintentional) or view etc can ever bring down any institution, country, community or religion. So have more faith in the country, the institution, the solid foundation over the decades, communities etc than be insecured about anything and everything. At the rate you and your troller friends are going we will enter an era when if a kid forwards a random WhatsApp picture, he or she can be suspended from school and no other school takes them forever. As a troller you would know this image was always on the internet even in 2017, even during Malaysia elections 2018 and there is a website who sells tonnes of these designs. Obviously you can’t troll others and the website etc so only need to target, stalk me..


    2. Avijit, I have spent a lot of time on social media over the years, not necessarily participating but reading what people say.

      Based on my understanding of faceless people like Tony here and countless other trolls like him is that they couldn’t give a rat’s rectum about the actual incident. Their main grouse is against people of certain races and especially nationalities. An irrational hatred against them because they are different and nothing else. No matter what justifications they have, it really boils down to targeting people for things that were beyond their control. They seem unable to stomach the fact that certain nationalities can have coveted jobs.

      At the same time, it’s usually the case that they themselves are unable to reach anywhere near and then they resort to blaming the government, irrationally claiming that the government loves the so called FTs because why not! So like crabs in a bucket, when they see another one climbing up, they try to grab onto them and force them back down.

      I wouldn’t say that everyone is like this but there is a critical mass of frustrated losers online who made enough noise to force DBS to succumb to the pressure. Those losers who cannot muster up the courage to act on their hatred in the real world so they hide behind ‘anonymous’ screen names.

      I’d like to request Tony (and his like) to get a life

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      1. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ for you!

        Absolutely agree.

        The three junk sites here reported that I was arrested and created the image both of which were utter lies. The trollers knew it. They know the website TEEYOLO has been selling this same image and multiple combinations for years on tshirts mugs etc. They know most T-shirts today that people wear have much more offensive content. But they could not stop themselves from being insecured and do the hate mongering cause that is the only thing they are good at. I wish someone paid them for those stream of hate comments they were endlessly reading and typing. Else all that burning and efforts is going to waste. The junk sites have now reported that I have not apologised, purposely ignoring that it was the first thing I gave to Straits Times on 18 Aug 2018. Honestly even if I apologise to each troller personally, that decades of hatred, excuses for their failures will never go. Cause this movement had nothing to do with the FB post.

        And also agree that those are just a handful of trollers and are not and can never be representative of this beautiful nation of six million people.

        Thank you for your words. They give them strength.


  3. I don’t know what your reasons are for not naming them but my suggestion is to post links to the websites. I believe I know some of them. They are quite the cesspools, possibly run by people who have themselves run from Singapore but make money out of the hatred of people like Tony.

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    1. Offcourse I would love to name every hate mongerer. The three sites which purposely and always spread falsified, twisted news to provoke people, lies etc are
      1. (this has been recently banned by Govt for spreading lies)

      None of then bothered to report this image is popularly sold in website widely that the image and its variants was in circulation since 2017, during Malaysia elections 2018 or even during that month Aug 2018 by few others too. They never thought of giving the explanation, which the website who sells tshirts gives etc. Because their agenda was and always is different. As you can sense from the comments, their readers and their fans. They never appreciate what Singapore gives and has given. What it has achieved over the five plus decades. How it has managed to race head and shoulders ahead of all its neighbours etc.


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